another day, another dollar

just got back from a very busy Vegas weekend.... my weekend started with a roller coaster turbulence. can't seem to do things right nor please people although some people will say it's not a matter or "pleasing" as to "offending". i'm talking in circles and metaphors coz i'm just expressing thoughts and feelings here.... my apologies to those reading coz you might not have a clue as to what these rantings are about... regardless, at least i'm training myself to not be as affected as i once was. good or bad, i guess i'm able to build at least a thin wall around myself for protection. di pa rin deadma pero at least i wasn't as hurt as i would have been in the past....

not at all good in my opinion kse i'm used to giving my all... building walls are never fun kse once it's built, kahit na it's to protect urself from a particular individual, it will be diffcult to tear down thus hindering the ability to open one's self up to other friendships (not that it matters at this particular point)? tsaka it's a huge sign ng relationship deterioration kung nagsisimula ka na dumistansya :(

it's a two-way street.... i don't mind giving more than i take and i definitely do no mind getting more than what i gave pero wag naman super imbalanced ung hati :(

being accused of insensitivity and being questioned your sense of fairness is tiring.... and it really sucks when i start to question my actions and judgement. first and foremost, i need to be able to trust myself, my individuality, my common sense, my upbringing and my logic!

hay naku! paulit-ulit na lang... life itself is an investment. as much as you want to make sure that your time is invested wisely, how would you know na may equity ka pa rin na iniingatan at pinoprotektahan or is it time to pack up everything and try to salvage what's left?

aray!

Minsan na ko nagmahal, minsan na din nasaktan, minsan nang naging tanga, dahil minsan minahal kita.. Papayagan ko pa ba maulit? Bakit hindi? E minsan lang ako naging masaya, nang mahalin ka..

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How do you make yourself fall OUT OF LOVE??

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yung pinaka-iingat-ingatan kong family.... it's falling apart and there's nothing I can do about it... I guess totoo yung sinasabi nila... LIFE GOES ON... THINGS CHANGE... I just need to learn how to let go....

YOU :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0M56-jyncAk

I never felt alone, I was happy on my own.
And who would ever know there was something missing?
I guess I didn't see the possibility, it was waiting all the time,
but it never crossed my mind, till you opened up my eyes.

Now I all I think about is you, in my life, in my dreams,
in my heart I know it's true that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what I'd do without you.

I never thought love could be such a curiousity.
What attracted you to me was soo unexpected,
but it was waiting all of the time and it never
crossed my mind, till you opened up my eyes.

Now I all I think about is you, in my life, in my dreams,
in my heart I know it's true, that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what I'd do without you.

You, in my life, in my dreams, in my heart,
I know it's true that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what i'd do.

Without you, in my life, in my dreams,
in my heart I know it's true, that I belong with you.
Because of you in my world, in my arms, I have everything
and now I can't imagine what i'd do.
I can't imagine what i'd do.. Without you...